I have claimed the waves that take me under.
Held the lightning.
Owned the thunder.

Sat alone
at night
to wonder

Will this ever change?

—

I have dreamed the dreams that turn to nightmares
with blurry lines and
blinding light glares.

Sat alone.
I might, but
I don’t share

But, will this ever change?

—

I have lived with my shame, my guilt, my darkness
and found a strength only I can harness

For now I know the truth of all this

I will never change.

—

I am beauty wrapped in light and glory.
I am the pages of my own story.

Nothing should ever make me wonder
Will this every change?

For I am enough
even with each blunder.
No mistake can take
me under.

For now I see in truth lies wonder.
I will never change.

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And yet I change each moment passed.
A single me could never last.
An effervescent life like gas
that floats above the breeze.

I can change with ease.

And I do, yet I do not.
I remain and yet, I’m caught.
Caught up in the winds of change
to shed the years of blame, shame, and pain.

Yes, I say that I have changed
and yet, I have remained.